How to keep calm

One of my greatest gifts.

Its definitely some thing that not everyone is good at. And it took me some time to get a handle on this also. But it has worked very well for me.

First.. Know your breaking point..

If you know how much and what it takes to get you to the point of 'no return', then you know your limit and how much you can handle. Now when you feel your temperature raise, take a deep breath and slowly release. And do it again. Now, do it again. Thinking before you speak is key. Depending on who's the confrontation is with, saying nothing can be just as effective as anything said.

Second.. You are in control of you..

No one else controls you. So no one else can dictate how and when you react.. If this isn't a life and death situation then your reaction should be controlled. You should maintain the knowledge that you are in control of your action. No one else will be held responsible for anything you do. So if you are not ready to pay the price, do the time, sacrifice you.. Then don't do it.. Its not worth it..

Third.. Never under estimate the person(s) around you..

Thinking that the person who is trying to confront you will be easy to handle.. Wrong.. You don't know what that person is capable of. So don't ever think that they can't or won't do what they want to do.. And the same goes for you. If that person underestimate you, that gives you the upper hand. You know what you are capable of.

Finally.. Never be afraid to walk away..

Any situation that you can walk away from, is always a good one. I'm not saying to turn your back on this person(s).. But know that words are just words.. And the only reason people use those words, are to get a raise out of you and to get you to react. You are always in control of You.

* I personally believe I am better than the person who is trying to get a raise out of me. I don't sink to any one's level. I never have anything to prove to anyone but myself and my children. What they think of me and what I think of myself is the important factor.. Pride yourself on being the best you you can be.. And it will all work out..

Keeping Motivated

The trick of keeping yourself motivated is simple... You have to want whatever it is bad enough.. Its great to have dreams and it wonderful to plan, but if you don't do and keep going. Then all the planning and dreaming will be for nothing and you will still be in the same place, before you started hoping and dreaming..

Never ever let anyone or anything keep the motivation down.. Pride yourself on being your own cheerleader.. Believe in yourself 110%.. Trust that all your time, effort, sweat, tears, and sleepless nights will make a difference once you achive your goal.. But you won't ever achive that goal if you stop now.. Keep in mind that anything worth having takes time, hard work, and alot of "I can do it".. No one else will ever want for to have that dream more than you..

Stay strong, Be tough, and Keep Motivated.. It will come

Until next my dreamers

Going forward

On the eve of my son's 16th birthday, I sit wondering and worrying 'what will it take to get us to where we need to be?'.. I worry that our lives won't be as it should be. I worry that I'm not enough for my boys. But in the misted of all that worrying "I do".. I work hard toward the goals that I set for myself, the goals I set for my boys. We all work. I put pen to paper and made a plan. Putting this plan in motion has not been easy, but Nothing worth having is every easy. My boys has have a few let downs in their young lives. And I will not be one of them. February 1st is a start of our new era. We will hit the ground running and we won't be looking back.

Hold on to your hats ladies and gentlemen... It our time

have you ever

Have you ever just wanted to hate someone so you can get over them??

Well I have ....

Well

I'm trying....

For someone like me who doesn't hate anyone, and pride myself on forgiveness. I'm trying very hard to dislike, even hate someone.. I want to hate so my heart can be free from him.. Be free to love someone, anyone else.. Sad part is that I've tried to replace him (which by the way didn't work). I've tried to move on. Which didn't work either. I was so focus on getting someone new I wasn't true to myself.

Being true to who you are is something I pride myself on. Its what I teach my boys to be. Its something I encourage the people around me to be. So being true to who I am, I have to admit that I still very much love someone who (in my words) don't love me.

I have in the past walked away from relationships that where just not right. From men who tried changing me into what they felt would be a better partner for them. I am not to be changed I am to be accepted, I am to be loved, I am to be respected, I am to be held with pride.

And if you can't do that then you do not deserve to have me in your life.

One sided love can leave you feeling lost and lonely. Lost to finding some one to love you back, and lost to yourself. Loneliness can take over your heart and leave your feeling alone. Unable to love the person that needs love.. Yourself.

As much as I love him, I love myself more. My heart ache when I think of him. But he will never consume my heart.

It's 1 a.m.

Again, another night. 1 a.m.
In my daily life I'm good. I have so much on my plate I just can't think straight at times. Then comes night. And somehow in the calm of it all sleep doesn't come as it should. I read, watch tv, take long hot bath's. Somehow nothing helps in times like these. I have so much worry, so much on my mind, and no way of fixing the things that need fixing. Did I cause my problems?? Or did I allow my problems to get ahead of me??

Somehow I seem not to have the answers to any of those questions. And yet still. I am awake at 1 a.m. trying to find my way.